Emotions are the language of the universe...

Magic, manifestation, and true internal freedom...

The Portal June will guide you to develop a relationship with your emotions beyond anything you have ever experienced.

Beyond nervous system regulation

Beyond learning to feel your feelings

Beyond rewiring your brain

Beyond manifestation

Beyond mindset work

Beyond it ALL

Sweet one, no...

You are not wrong and neither are your feelings

You simply have not been taught the language of your emotions, HOW to be with them, process them, and get to the truth of them...

HOW to extract the lessons from everything that is happening for you, and to fall in love with the journey along the way.

I see a few ways this goes:

You have a spiritual awakening, dive into the shadows, and hold on tightly to the suffering. 

You get super comfortable there and believe you will be in pain forever and that life is "hard." This feels super safe. 

Meanwhile, you are increasingly becoming more and more bitter, frustrated, and resentful, hiding your immense wisdom and medicine. (this was me)

OR

You discover manifestation, become "spiritual," and avoid the dark depths of your soul, staying "high vibe," and smiling your way around the darkness and pain that is curdling underneath begging you to pay attention, 

which means you can never be still because it will come to greet you, so you run through the world with subtle frenetic energy driving you,

feigning everything is perfect all while suffering so fully that eventually your body shows symptoms in the form of anxiety, PCOS, inflammation, gut issues, etc…

OR

You say that you have learned to dive to the dark, process your emotions, and surrender, yet there is this sneaky and subtle control grasping tightly to what you “know”, terrified to shatter the illusion you have created. 

Your ego holds on tightly because you “know” all the things, yet that sneaky unprocessed emotion grips tightly to your nervous system, and you are terrified to face what it will mean to get honest with yourself about it.

Sweet one, there is another way, and I can guide you there.

I know you feel this subtle holding on, contraction, shut down, and reactivity.

You get triggered easily.

OR

You are so controlled you won’t allow yourself to feel the trigger at all (hello repressed emotion). Just because you “think” it shouldn’t bother you doesn’t mean it doesn’t.

When you repress it, you deny it, and when you deny it, it stores in your body and constellates out. This is the universe asking you to FEEL it.

And here you are, living your “best” life, doing ALL the things, and yet, there is something missing and your body is starting to tell you through symptoms…

You struggle with how… 

To let go…

To just be 

To surrender

To allow your heart to open and to stay there even when you are in pain, especially when you are in pain because that is where the magic is.

Most people do not know how to relate to their emotions and so the emotions get stuck, constipated, stagnant, and then you feel sick.

You shut down and scroll and binge TV

Make your emotions wrong

saying " I know I shouldn't feel this way."

or "I already know what is happening"

"Knowing" doesn't equal processing

Avoid hard conversations

Avoid disagreements that need to be had

Avoid REAL connection because you don’t know how to be with your emotions and looking in another’s eyes asks you to look at yourself

You attach on

You people please

You want to find a way to make it better all in avoidance of loss

And this is all in avoidance of your own emotions

And because no one knows how to be with emotions—

to hold them, see them, validate them, to process them through their body so that they are actually in motion and are alchemized into creation…

…everyone is stuck, stagnant, and unable to actually feel internally free, even if this is at a subtle level.

You intellectualize, “know” the things, yet haven’t embodied them or created the nervous system safety to process the emotions through.

And so you buy all the courses—

the manifestation, the changing your thoughts, the rewiring, the creating new beliefs, the strategy, the shadow work, nervous system regulation, the goddess rituals, the divine feminine embodiment, the high priestess training, etc. etc.

You tap into your divine feminine or divine masculine, you do the rituals, you make things sacred.

You meditate, practice yoga, chant, sing, study the ancient texts, and…

It all helps, but there is something missing.

If you are denying it, avoiding it, shutting it down, attaching onto it, making it wrong, trying to get it validated by others, but not validating or challenging it yourself and moving it through you, allowing it to be in motion…

The universe picks up on that and it will continually bring you situation after situation after situation to address the emotions that live inside of you so that you can be internally free.

You must feel safe to trust that it is all happening for you, to see the unseen within each situation in your life, and to move with power through the emotions that arise.

This is an artform.

One I will teach you in a way no one else has.

No one teaches how to create a relationship with your emotions in the way we do in Yarrow Kae Academy, to create magic with them, and to use them to manifest in your life.

This is for you if you:

Get triggered about the same things over and over and cannot figure out the deeper root

Avoid your triggers by “thinking it shouldn’t bother you”

Make yourself wrong for feeling sad, angry, shameful, or fearful and try to justify it

or attach onto it as a defense against actually processing

Have not created a relationship with your shame. When you avoid your shame you avoid yourself.

Know there is more ease available to you yet still feel subtle frenetic energy gripping you

Have physical symptoms like anxiety, inflammation, gut issues, etc and don’t understand why

Feel frustrated that the universe is giving you the same lesson again, and you want to be a victim to it, but you know you “shouldn’t”

Desire to create an expansive life and feel stuck at a certain point

Avoid your feelings because you “know”

Know all your traumas, wounds, and pains yet haven’t allowed yourself to FEEL the stuck and stagnant emotions in your body

Tell the lie that “sometimes things just happen” to avoid getting honest about what is happening within you.

Yearn to have an embodied relationship with your emotions so you feel free

In The Portal June you will 

Learn to access, feel, express, your true emotions so you feel internal joyful and free

Understand how to use our emotions to speak to the universe and manifest along the way, so you can create a life that feels how you want it to

Create magic through each emotional state, yes, even pain and shame, so you do not make yourself wrong and suffer through trying to control

Unpack your shame and how your avoidance of it is avoiding yourself (we ALL do this), so you are not stuck avoiding shame and suffering as a result

Process the innate shame you carry around having intense emotions (we ALL have this shame because people do not know how to be with emotions)

Create internal freedom on levels you never knew possible through releasing stuck and stagnant emotions, especially the ones that you didn’t even know were there

Embody emotional mastery so you are not a victim to your emotions or the world around you rather you are the powerful creator in every moment

Break your heart open and feel it all so feel deeply expansive in your life

Understand your triggers and know how to move through them with ease so they no longer control you and create disconnection and suffering in your life

Feel free to BE with ALL emotions and not make yourself wrong for them rather to use them to paint the magic of your world

Create from the place of “it is all happening FOR me” without justifying, blaming, denying, or bypassing so you are free to be on this beautiful journey of life

Paint a beautiful picture with your rawest and most painful emotions